I Struggled to Make Life Work
There’s nothing more exciting to me than witnessing women and girls come to love themselves in more a complete and authentic way. Until we do, we will never be free to become who we’re really meant to be and achieve the kind of success that’s rightfully ours.
I know what it feels like to appear as if you’re on top of the world. I’ve traveled and spent time with high profile celebrities, movers and shakers in the entertainment industry. I’ve dined at the best restaurants, lived in five star luxurious hotels, traveled around town in fancy limos, and was on first name basis with top business leaders.
I’ve hosted and produced several international and national events that gained the attention of top hollywood executives. I’ve even launched the careers of numerous talented young men and women in the modeling/entertainment industry. My name has been associated with words like, “powerful, smart, talented and gifted.” But none of this mattered. Because it was all just a charade.
Everyone thought I was on top of my game. Little did they know, I was sinking fast. My marriage of sixteen years was falling apart. And even though I was earning great money, I was broke, broken, and my health was declining quickly.
For years, I struggled and questioned my sense of worthiness, value, and even my right to exist. Because I always held positions of leadership, there was no one I could go to for support. I was always everyone’s support. When I finally came to terms that my marriage of 16 years was over, I realized I didn’t have a plan B. I found myself in a deep, dark and desolate space. I thought my life was over. Yet, my life had just started.
My Awakened Truth
One day a friend of mine looked squarely into my eyes and asked me a question that would change the course of my life forever. She asked, “Angela, what do you want?” It was such a simple question. Yet, for someone who had spent most of her life doing and being what others wanted or expected from her, I didn’t have an answer. I didn’t know what I wanted because I didn’t know who I was.
I spent years trying to make everyone happy by doing and being what they expected of me, while still searching for that hidden woman who I sensed was somewhere deep inside. I struggled in my relationship with love and my relationship with money. I could earn great money, but I couldn’t keep it. After my divorce, I would date wonderful guys but the relationship would somehow turn south.
I thought what was happening to me was a personal failure on my part. I soon discovered it was something deeper. I was able to retrace much of my pain back to my father-daughter relationship. I was a “Fatherless Daughter Woman.” A “Fatherless Daughter Woman” is a female who grew up with an unattached, unavailable or absent father. This one key missing element in a female’s life can have many negative consequences once she becomes an adult.
I realized that I was living out many of the patterns that were unique to Fatherless Daughter Women. We receive our identity from our paternal relationships and connections. If that relationship if flawed or non-existent, we begin to search for our identity, our sense of significance and someone to love us in all the wrong places.
Yet, our pain will never heal until we heal our misplaced sense of identity. I was not living my truth by not understanding who I was. I needed to rediscover, reconnect and reawaken to my truth. I knew that if I could reawaken to my soul’s truth, heal my daddy wounds and forgive others that my life would begin to move in a radical new direction. There began my Journey to love, acceptance and forgiveness. My Awakened Life.
Angela Carr Patterson is one of the most talented business women I have ever had the good fortune to work with. We’ve been working on different projects for over a decade now and I promise anyone she works with will be blessed beyond measure. She has the vision, experience, talent and passion to mentor anyone to find their Greatness. Angela has the uncanny ability to breathe unlimited “Hope” and “Possibility” in to Everyone she touches! This world is a Much Better place because she lives!!!! Thank you Angela for believing in me!!!–Susan Walsh. 7 Figure Income Earner in Network Marketing
I have known and worked with Angela Carr Patterson for many years. The one thing that has resonated in her work from my perspective as a husband, father, and businessman, is her passion for giving and enlightening. In this very social, and very corporate, bottomline world, whether it be home, for-profit business, or not-for-profit business, the ability to positively impact as many as possible has been a cornerstone of her body of work. Positively impacting people and things, promotes growth across a broad spectrum. I look forward to my next initiative with her mission to help individuals, and families enjoy an enhanced quality of life.–Roscoe Wilson, Jr., CEO/President, R.C. Wilson Group, LLC