I am so excited about my new upcoming national TV Talk Show. This week I was in Atlanta for the second taping of the show. That’s me with my amazing makeup artist/hairstylist, Roger. He is awesome and this was just my first look. As the car service drove up to the set, I saw all of these people wearing that t-shirt that you see Roger wearing. I loved the color, so I asked if I could have one. When I looked at the shirt, it had the name of the my show and my name on it. I cried. Why? Because it finally hit me that this is real and it’s really happening.
God is so good and I know it is God’s doing. What’s even more amazing is that I had on my vision board a photo that read, “My tv talk show set.” When my show’s set designer put the set together…it was so similar…down to the white sofa and big window that I almost collapsed when I saw it.
Recently, one of my coaches said to me, “Do you realize how powerful you are? I pray that you get out of your comfort zone. Do you realize how much the world needs you? You are a voice in the healing of our society and so many can be influenced positively by you.” When I heard those words, I must admit, they scared me. Because all I want is to help women leaders awakened to their truth and help fatherless daughters heal their daddy wounds. Can’t I just keep doing what I’m doing? I knew the answer already. NO!
Last year, my other coach asked me, “Do you believe that you are supposed to be a household name?” I answered, “I’m not sure.” She said, “then you call me back when you are sure.” You see, I surround myself with people who don’t play with me. They are hard on me and they push me. When I called her back and said, “I’m ready.” She answered, “No, you’re not.” She wouldn’t talk to me again for 45 days. And she finally said, “You’re ready.”
I struggled with those questions because I contemplated what my life would be like if I was famous and that frightened me. You see, I love doing what I’m doing. I didn’t even realize that I was becoming comfortable. A couple of months ago, I received the red light on the TV show and had only two days to get to Atlanta to film. My executive producer, R &B Legend Angie Stone said, ‘It’s time for the world to see you.“
The day I received that call, I was not feeling my best. I was thinking about stoping my business for a while. I was tired. Just like you. I get tired sometimes. Yet, I went to Atlanta and shot the first episode. It was an amazing experience.
I came back home and began to read over all of my notes from my coaches. I read them over and over again. I knew that in order for me to fulfill this opportunity and all the other things I’d put on the back burner, I needed to go deeper. I needed to breakthrough some resistance, I was feeling from deep within. My fatherless daughter patterns were trying to sneak in and I needed to go deeper. I needed the help of my coach because I am matured enough to know that I cannot facilitate my own transformation and transcendence. As I emerged, I emerged charged, filled, shifted and transformed. I’m ready for what’s next. I will never allow my fears to keep me from reaching my full potential or coming short of my fullness. And neither should you.
The funny thing happened after me going deeper…the phone started ringing non stop. I received a call from from all over the world with offers to do some amazing things. I heard someone say recently that “your destiny is being blocked by your density. Your energy maybe dense and need to get unblocked and you need to go deeper to get to it. This is what I do for many of my clients. “I’m not sharing any of this to brag or impress you. But to encourage you that it’s time for you to do it bigger. It’s time to do it at another level.
We can become deceived into thinking that we are doing great work and at the level we are suppose to be doing it. But what if, you were suppose to do it bigger? What if the vision you are holding is too small? What if it was not just your time, but it’s also your turn?
The one thing that I’ve always done is to believe in myself and to believe that anything was possible. I’m just fortunate enough to have surrounded myself with people who will remind me when I forget. I want to remind you of the same.